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Originally Posted by genesim
All I can see is what is on Death of a Porn Queen.
As for Shauna herself, her death had a profound impact on me and she remains my favorite porn star ever. Her story is a sad one, but I do enjoy her films a great deal. I remember in her first interview on film that she said it was the point to get excited watching her. In my mind it is important that what she did be recognized for the great work that it is. What is more futile, her short life, or that what she accomplished be for nothing? To enjoy her beauty and the great sex on film is a tribute. I appreciate what she was as a person and that includes everything she was.
Her parents seemed really cold to me, especially her mom. It is just a fact and it is sad that her denial was very obvious. Matter of fact, I would go further and say that it was completely oblivious.
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I mean, all I really "know" of her is what I saw on the PBS Frontline Death Of A Porn Queen program and the few accounts published in newspapers at the time of her death. And how much are you really going to know about someone in terms of what was going on in their head from that limited amount of material? You make an impression based upon what they did.
I'm not inferring that she was necessarily a bad person because of what she did or how she died. I am saying it seems fairly obvious that she was overwhelmed by the lifestyle she chose, and clearly didn't have either the grit, savvy, street smarts, confidence to see her way out of where she found herself when she ended her life. In retrospect, it seems all too easy to state that she made a lot of bad choices in terms of where those decisions ended up. Then again, I suppose it's possible she would have opted for suicide even if she hadn't done porn.
Obviously, I'm not anti-porn. That being said, I'm not sure considering the totality of her life that appearing in porn films and porn mags quite constitutes an accomplishment - seemingly none of that mattered much to her in the final analysis - and I don't consider jacking off to her image a tribute. Then again, who knows what she thought of herself when all was said and done: it has been said that every suicide is the archetypal mystery inside a riddle wrapped in an enigma in terms of the why.
Not to be harsh or appear contrarian to how you view her, but when I ask myself how she viewed her brief stint in porn, and when I take into account that she had made a choice to stop making films in the year before her suicide while shacking up with her coke dealer boyfriend, and after he was arrested and told her she had to move out of his house and the only thing she had left to turn to was resuming her career in porn and she killed herself just days before she was to do her first porn scene since having left the industry, does that sound like a person who was proud of what she had done in terms of appearing in porn flicks and mags?